I woke up quite early today and could not go back to sleep, that has been happening for a few days now. Mostly my brain is racing with all the things i need to pack up and stow away, give away, throw away interlaced with all the mixed emotions of leaving the first home I bought with my better half and leaving behind friends who are more like my family now and than of course there is the excitement of starting a fresh in a new city which is always full of adventure and fun.
I have moved alot all my life that I could give tips to a nomad. I have never stayed in the same house for more than 2 years. So This house was the longest I stayed in any one place, but more than the house it is the friendships I have made which pull at my heart strings right now.
When I left Montreal I remember being a little nostalgic but a part of me was actually happy to be leaving all the cold and snow behind I could not have imagined in a million years how much i would come to miss that place.
After I got married I was still finishing up my degree so I used to travel between Montreal and Vancouver a lot, every vacation I got I d fly out to Vancouver to see my husband. At that time he was the unofficial designated driver with a car so invariably our car would be full of his pals, that had irked me at times but very soon I started to make friends with all of them. There I would be sitting in the passenger seat giving them some lecture or the other on women psychology or on western living and in the process I got to learn a lot about computer programming, visa issues and the male camaraderie which is very different from the female friendships. While we ladies can pour our hearts out to our soul sisters, the gentlemen prefer the time honored tradition of annoying the heck out of one another with jokes that usually target one poor soul at any given time.
Very soon these gentlemen got wives of their own and slowly those ladies became closer to me than my own sisters. We traversed the initial maze and emotional high and low of marriage together, I could never feel alone when I had so many wonderful young girls surrounding me and my life became a steady stream of organizing picnics, parties and potlucks especially the bacha kucha parties were the best.
We used to go to so many places in our little car; Vancouver crowd as our 'group' came to be called has so much bonding with each other, others would tell me.
I am a pretty good communicator but at this time I am feeling so overwhelmed with emotion I do not really know how to verbalize how much each of my Vancouver crowd friend means to me all the beautiful memories we have had the privilege to make. I guess it was just everything the moving to a new place together and figuring out the in and out of a new city, the similar experiences of being far from home, being newly married, having our kids around the same time which had strengthened our bond.
I am very excited to go and live in a new place but I am also sad because no matter what things will change now because being in close proximity and being far always does change relationships and as life gets busier with kids and careers and other responsibilities our carefree roaming in our little green car will get further and further. I guess the difference is that when I had left Montreal i did not know how much I would miss my friends there but this time I know and yes we will visit and they will visit but we will not have the spur of the moment tea gupshups and the late night movie nights or the girl party as often.
I know I am being aunty sentimental here but well that is just how I am and you know you love me for it right ;). You will miss me but I have a whole bunch of you whom I will miss so right now my heart is over flowing. Life is all about change and we should embrace it because growth is always at the end of our comfort zones. I just want to end with something a very dear friend of mine said to me when I moved from Montreal even if we dont meet as often, talk as often or even if we never meet again there is happiness in knowing that there will always be a person who has your best interest at heart and every time I will think of you I will send a prayer your way. May Allah shower his mercy upon you and give you his bestest and choicest blessings and may all your burdens be made light. I hope that if I ever pop into your mind you will send a blessing my way too.
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